I was still in a bad mood when I woke up yesterday morning and I had a driving lesson. Because of this, I took my time to wake up slow, because I would need all the energy I had for this lesson. I had doom scenarios in my head, where I would mess up everything, because my head is somewhere else.
As usual, my driving lesson started with telling my instructor what was on my mind. She knows that this influences the driving lesson, that’s why she always asks. She understood that I probably wasn’t going to perform at my best level, so she started off slow. Then something happened to me… I had to focus on what was happening, but not so much that my head would explode. It was the perfect amount of focussing where no other thoughts were allowed in, but my head wasn’t crammed with information either.
Suddenly my head cleared up. My mind went clear and I could focus on what I was doing. Along with this change, my mood changed too. I could see the bright weather that was outside and I felt confident in what I was doing again. Driving turned out to be very therapeutic! I loved my driving lesson and it allowed for me to have a clear view on my life again. This doesn’t mean that all my problems are solved, but it does mean that I can finally start making new plans on how to handle all of this.
This is how important a good instructor is. My previous instructor wasn’t trained to work with people with Autism. I started out happily driving, but she ended up just stressing me out. This new instructor changed everything and brought back my love for driving, and this cleared the way for new directions (pun intended) in my life. I wonder where this will take me.